Cam Opens Up About Her Insecurity

January 12, 2018
Cam is opening up to fans about the anxiety she deals with on a daily basis. In case you missed it, the singer posted a picture of herself on Instagram, noting that it was a picture from last year that she sent to a friend asking if she looked, “ugly/ridiculous/stupid.” “Before every show or public appearance I put myself through about one hour of anxiety, trying to fix myself up to match some idea of what I’m “supposed” to look like,” she writes. “Doesn’t matter if I have a stylist or make up artist helping me either btw, I still get anxious.” Cam says the anxiety goes away once she’s on stage, but notes, “it’s frustrating that I let this insecurity become a routine that eats at my time, money, confidence and ultimately reinforces the idea that I am not in control of my own worth." But Cam says she’s not going to do it anymore, noting that how she looks “doesn’t make my music any better, it doesn’t make me happier,” and adds that it’s a “massive waste of time.” Finally she writes, “I’ve decided I’m gonna leave these insecure moments in 2017. I’m gonna save my give-a-f**k’s for magical stuff this year. Just like that. So here I go, looking however I look, without the worry, to more present and powerful experiences in 2018.”

Check out that look of concern! This was 2017, sending a pic to one of my besties- asking if I looked ugly/ridiculous/stupid. Before every show or public appearance I put myself through about one hour of anxiety, trying to fix myself up to match some idea of what I’m “supposed” to look like. Doesn’t matter if I have a stylist or make up artist helping me either btw, I still get anxious. Once I’m onstage it disappears, but it’s frustrating that I let this insecurity become a routine that eats at my time, money, confidence and ultimately reinforces the idea that I am not in control of my own worth. But I am. How I make people feel is how they REALLY see me. How ”beautiful” I am only really matters to shallow people (and industry losers), but usually they are so concerned with their own appearance they don’t really see me. Beauty is a made up set of rules to follow - an ever changing game we unconsciously agree to play everyday (esp on social media). But it doesn’t make my music any better, it doesn’t make me happier, and it’s actually a massive waste of my potential to put someone else’s ideas ahead of my own. So I’ve decided I’m gonna leave these insecure moments in 2017. I’m gonna save my give-a-fuck’s for magical stuff this year. Just like that. So here I go, looking however I look, without the worry, to more present and powerful experiences in 2018 ------ #2018goals

A post shared by Cam (@camcountry) on Jan 9, 2018 at 3:27pm PST

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